A jelly baby
by poetrydiary
And what remains of love is this;
a pack of jelly babes.
“Give these to your mum,” he says,
and turns away to shield
his tears.
Fifty four sweets are in that bag;
one for each year of coloured days.
This one tastes of ’65,
that one of ’91 –
all gone.
“She still likes these, sometimes,” he says,
“as far as I can tell.”
She takes one more, unsmiling,
and heads towards the door,
unsure
of who she is or who we are,
or why these little bumpy things
still seem to mean so much to us
and feel so warm and moist,
almost
defining something once well known
she feels is lost or yet to come,
but will not find her now.
There must be something new
to do.
Across the room the curtains close,
and in the fading evening light,
a single jelly baby lies
alone; her lover’s furious final wail –
of farewell.
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Jelly babies are traditional English sweets. People with dementia seem to like sweets.
Posted on d’Verse Open Link night.
A whole lifetime in a packet of Jelly Babies. There is something terribly wistful about childhood things out of time and place. You nailed it.
I can so much relate to this… my mother’s dementia came so quickly and now there is nothing left i feel…. I wonder if there would be anything like this to have a little of her back.
Such a touching poem. If you scroll my pages you will find a poem called “The Long Goodbye”, dedicated to my mother. It is heart-rending to lose them while they are still here.
Thanks Bev – I found your poem and empathise completely. I like your midnight campfire metaphor too. (Tried to comment on your site but it doesn’t recognise my ID, which is probably me…)
I learned something new today Matthew ~ This is very touching read ~
We have jelly belly beans here…a very tender poem, thanks for sharing!
Oh my goodness, I have tears in my eyes. Counting and remembering years in jelly babies is so poignant. I gasped at the lines:
;This one tastes of ’65,
that one of ’91 –
all gone’.
As I read the final stanza, I felt the heat of tears.
Thanks Kim, you’re very kind.
You’re more than welcome. 😊
I didn’t realize that sweets were associated with dementia. I liked how you put the different tastes as related to the different years in one’s memory.
This is soo touching!
the sum of a history in a bag of candy, how little it can come down to after all the time being together, this was beautifully written from both perspectives.
My mother-in-law had dementia, and chocolate was her only happiness. This was such a poignant poem for me. Thanks.
So sad – dementia is a terrifying illness, and you captured that very well
Jellybabies: are they like American jelly beans? I had a cell mate who had dementia. It was rough.
I think they are the same, yes. Using jelly beans would have made the rhythm of the poem better too!